*where'd you go?

2006-07-13T13:52:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed the thrill ride?

I've moved :

http://simren.livejournal.com/

2006-07-07T12:57:00.000+08:00

TGIF? Not really. After an entire week of fun games with my boss Anna Marie being offsite in Shanghai and leaving me all by my lonesome self (not quite) in the office, it’s all coming to an end. Anna will be back on Monday so oh well. It was fun while it lasted. Extra long lunches with my pals and colleagues. Got to at least visit the girls at Tanjong Pagar once and I finished work on the dot. So didn’t have to rush to Clementi for my gym sessions…

Speaking of which, it was 2 of my colleagues birthday, so we’re going to Cheeky’s today. It’s been ages since I last went there and it’ll be a totally different experience to go there with much older people as compared to going with my buddies…

Today, when I was in the cab, I started thinking of random nonsense (so what else is new?). And as I was saying, you know the phrase Life isn’t always a bed of roses? Yah, does the author/philosopher you thought up that phrase mean to imply that whilst life isn’t always a bunch of roses, it sometimes is? Hmm, I bed to differ. I do not think that life is ever a bed of roses nor is there ever silver linings on clouds, at least not on the clouds around my neighbourhood. Life is okay. It’s not fantastic but it’s okay..

2006-07-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

Brazil is out of the world cup.

I told you so. I told you so.I told you so.I told you so.

These; just a few of my favourite things...

2006-06-26T14:45:00.000+08:00

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2006-06-26T13:33:00.000+08:00

--, originally uploaded by Simm-.

School of Film Media Studies

2006-06-26T13:30:00.000+08:00

School of Film Media Studies, originally uploaded by Simm-.

coffee-cup

2006-06-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

coffee-cup, originally uploaded by Simm-.

Old picture, taken at the old SB-RC; just before we moved.

2006-06-22T18:11:00.000+08:00

You know how they always say that human beings also posses the same kind of instincts that animals posses? This is called the animal instinct I don’t get one thing though. If human beings have brains bigger, smarter, more powerful than the others from our animal kingdom, why then do we not make use of it?

Case in point. A guy is attached. It says so in his effing profile goddamnit, and then this particular female gives him a flirtatious testimonial. For what? Because she can? Is that it? Do courtesy basic manners don’t matter anymore? How would you like it you’re married and some other girl/woman starts hitting on your husband? It’ll make you feel like fuck too right?

Whatever lah, whatever. So bloody angry now lah. And no, I’m not being sensitive or overly emotional lorh. I have a right to feel this way. I’m trusting. But I just don’t get that woman’s sense of what the fuck-ed up ness…

aaargh-

the mug (I love my Attitude Problem)

2006-06-22T10:23:00.000+08:00

the mug (I love my Attitude Problem), originally uploaded by Simm-.

Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today

Bloody Ha-Ha

2006-06-22T10:16:00.000+08:00

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent - Eleanor Roosevelt

Smile; If you can't lift the corners, let the middle sag - Unknown

430 Publicity Poster

2006-06-20T16:12:00.000+08:00

430 Publicity Poster, originally uploaded by Simm-.

family

2006-06-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

family, originally uploaded by Simm-.

A boring post about being bored.

2006-06-16T18:05:00.000+08:00

I am so bored, I am really so bored. Bored I am. Really I am. Boredom is not new. However when experienced in such large quantities such as now, it can be quite detrimental to one’s health and mental strength such as now. Will I survive such boredom? Really, no one knows. Have there been studies on such cases of acute boredom? Or maybe the scientists who did conduct such studies all got classified as being dysfunctional. Because only a bored person would want to study boredom. But wait, do bored people enjoy being bored? I don’t. Why then would they want to study boredom? Now isn’t that boring? Isn’t that the point? Well not really. But then again, why do people get bored anyway? Because there’s nothing else to do but just click aimlessly at a clinically white computer monitor hoping random articles will pop up from Internet heaven; exciting enough to send whichever bored person (See:Me) into a fanatical frenzy so as to redeem myself from this stage of borderline boredom. But bored I remain, because no such article exists. And can someone explain to me why I have to get the computer terminal facing inwards, so that the whole world walks behind me and so they get to spy and check and glance and see what exactly I am doing right now. Why even as we speak I have to type this entry on Microsoft word so as to avoid detection from Office spies. Driven to such ends, I have no choice but comply and I do this with a vengeance. Which other maniac types blog entries into Microsoft word I ask you? None. But me of course; the eternally bored. But wait, that isn’t the topic. Boredom is; I forgot. Sorry. Why see how bored I am? In boredom, I even forgot about being bored. I am so bored.
So why exactly am I bored? Because the boss isn’t around lah. She’s on some kind of overseas business trip and so that’s why for the past 2 days I’ve been bored senseless. So bored, that I’ve surfed my computer’s Network, going through C drive- X Drive. And no, X Drive articles and documents are not erotic to me in any way. I fact, they are meaningless, because I don’t understand Banking stuff. I mean I know what a Credit Card is. I know what loans are for, but I don’t the operational processes. But why am I discussing that anyway? Keep to the topic woman. Boredom. You see, once again, I’m so bored, I forgot my boredom. And yes, even at the end of this discussion, I maintain my stance. The boredom is still there; alive and kicking; heart pumping at a gazillion miles an hour.

I’m still bored.

B
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I

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Really.

Lady in Red.

2006-06-16T11:10:00.000+08:00

Red., originally uploaded by Simm-.

Weird thinkings of a some sinister minister prone to nostalgic notions and adverse reactions. Lampost-hitting wayne wonder.

Nuclear reactive

2006-06-16T11:08:00.000+08:00

Nuclear reactive, originally uploaded by Simm-.

X marks the spot-

2006-06-16T11:03:00.000+08:00

X marks the spot.,
originally uploaded by Simm-.

Yep. That's the title of this photo. Never really noticed the difference between SLR and digital cameras before but I suppose the main one would be that the 2 capture light quite differently. Best whether for getting vivid photos would be serious, extreme sunshine on your subject and when i took this, the sunlight was really present but too bad the photo isn't as vivid as i would have liked.

I kinda miss walking around taking photos... Should do it more often.

2006-06-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

Today I saw a Grass-Cutting apparatus up-close.

And I must say, I found it very cool indeed...
Now the only question is how much does one cost and where to buy.. Where to BUY?

Of frozen strawberries and uber cool movies...

2006-06-07T13:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday at Mos Burger,
Dare bought us some frozen strawberry desert thing.

Without realizing it was frozen,
i ate the white chocolate part
and then dumped the rest in my mouth-

HAHA, wrong move. My teeth hurt so much after that and then Dare was telling us this story about how her friend didn't know it was frozen and did what i did (put everything in at one go)... and then i told them i just did the same thing. they looked at me in mock-horror and then burst out laughing.

my goodness.MOS burger should put up a disclaimer saying that frozen strawberries should be eaten slowly. One petite bite at a time.

Bleargh.

On another note, I finally watched X-Men : The Last Stand. and was reflecting on how cute or cool the charachters have become. I still wish i were Storm!

From XMEN 2...
You know what happens to a toad when its struck by lightning?

(drop dead silence)

Same thing that happens to everything else.

That moment was like so uber cool lah!

2006-05-26T12:43:00.000+08:00

When you're tired, sometimes it's easy to just give up.
Give up.

2006-05-21T17:42:00.000+08:00

stagnant underwater;
i blink in my sleep.

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2006-05-06T19:53:00.000+08:00

wow, i didn't realize i would actually be do detached physically from my old work place. When I was there, it seemed that the old-timers were still very much included and blah blah, which was cool because everyone was like a big family. but oh well, things change and i must move on too. what's the point of missing a place and people when they don't really give two fucks over whether you're still breathing... no lah, i'm not pissed.. i'm just in a very thoughtful, philosophical and soul-searching kind of mood...

strange, when supposed-to-be mutual feelings are eventually not mutual. they're one sided.

i should give up. roll over. and play dead.

Arson.

2006-05-03T16:03:00.000+08:00

Today I saw a familiar white flag around my neighbourhood;
and I'm not sure why by I suddenly developed an urge to torch down the God-forsaken flag...

I'm sorry. I don't usually develop such arsonistic thought....

Election blues

2006-05-02T10:36:00.000+08:00

Fuck the blardy "gahment” lah okay. . .

So what if Aljunied is my bloody GRC.

That does not give you the right to wake me up at 11 am, listening to the tunes of your bloody party lorry circling my carpark airing some kind of weird speech that I don’t even bloody understand because it sounds gibberish from the 8th floor.

And what is with you cornering people at the bus-stop, attempting to shake their hands. Like, we are still trying to wake-up you know. Sleep still written all over our faces and here you come shaking our hands and attempting to introduce yourself to us… Hallo, we already know who you are lah okay. We have seen the gigantic billboards of your faces on every goddamn lamp-post.

So, for the past 5 years, if the residents wanted to meet you at the Meet-the-people session, they have to queue up for 4 hours right? I am not exaggerating. And now, just because you are running for elections you have to be in our faces all the time right? Hallo, nobody needs to see you now, so why the hell are you everywhere?

In case any one cares, if I had a choice, I would probably vote for Mr. Porno himself Steve – I’m so sexy – Chia… Remember the big hoo-hah about him and his nude photos everywhere??? Woah… good thing I’m not old enough to vote yet . . .

Blardie gahment.

Sometimes

2006-04-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I've got it;

Sometimes I don't.

Most times, I just pray I get lucky. *smiles

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2006-04-26T09:19:00.000+08:00

Whatever they say I am;
That is what I am Not...

Artic Monkeys

i totally agree.

Truth

2006-04-24T13:57:00.000+08:00

sometime truth is right in front of you,
just waiting for you to acknowledge its presence.

and all you really have to do,
is to shut up and smell the coffee.

the truth can be beautiful...

V for Vendetta

2006-04-24T11:09:00.000+08:00

Behind this mask are ideas
and ideas are bulletproof.

V for Vendetta

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2006-04-14T19:45:00.000+08:00

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.

that was the last time. my heart's stopped liking you. now i go into hate mode.

what is the world coming to?

2006-04-13T10:29:00.000+08:00

What is the world coming to?

An ex-classmate of mine, J, recently told my ex-boyfriend that she thinks something is up with me. He asked why. She said, Oh, she is suddenly being so nice to me. It is getting kinda scary… He said why, scary. She said, oh the last time she was nice to me, she wanted something from me.

WHAT THE FUCK??

I never knew it was illegal to be civil to people you do not like. Excuse me, but I do not go around being nice to people I need things from. I am in no way calculative and I am very just the opposite. WTF? I say what I feel and I do what I think is right. I do not fucking care what you think. I care only about my friends and friends from SB are probably my inspiration to start becoming a better nicer person for the betterment of everyone.

Walau, I am so fucking angry can? I mean like seriously, you have some nerve going around and bitching about me lah.

Or maybe it is a Mass Comm thing? Like seriously, wat the hell man?

Today, tomorrow, thereafter...

2006-04-12T16:08:00.000+08:00

Today, tomorrow, thereafter;
I am still here.

Today, tomorrow, thereafter;
I am still here.

Today, tomorrow, thereafter;
I am still here.

I am still; still here.

sad, lonesome self

2006-04-12T16:05:00.000+08:00

The smell fat monkey
whom nobody will play with
sits alone
in a dark and dusty corner

and nibbles banana

one

by

one.

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2006-04-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

unobtainable:

i can't
see you/hear you/talk to you/eat with you/drink with you/walk with you/spend time with you/joke with you/laugh with you/feel with you/hurt with you/hold hands with you/be with you

i can't because I will never get to

hopeless cause

2006-04-09T18:24:00.000+08:00

you're never letting go of her;
it's a hopeless cause.

i want you to be happy-

Chaos-

2006-04-05T16:48:00.000+08:00

Chaos in silence...

that sums things up perfectly. I'm not saying anything but that doesn't mean i'm not thinking of everything...

I am not cut out for this.

2006-04-03T11:21:00.000+08:00

I am not cut out for this,

Nothing here really seems to engage or excite me. But then again, maybe I am standing too near the brim to really know what new challenges/exciting adventures lurk beneath. What really swims in the murky waters below? Everything is so hazy that I cannot really tell; at least not whilst I am still standing here.

Adapting is okay, you really learn the art of doing nothing yet looking like you are really engrossed. Back then it was easy, grab a dish-cloth and look like you are really engrossed in wiping a wet surface or volunteer to prepare tons of prep-work, go bussing, clean, clean, clean. There was always something to do. Nothing? Cannot think of anything; then go sampling lah.

Here, I am more comfortable, knowing that I am at a better place, a safer place. Less uncertain, less bitchy, less politics, where partners do not go around bitching about their own partners.

All because of what? To get into the good books of management? I would not know, I do not engage in such activities.

You realize that now I am out of the system, I have the liberty of telling it all, as it is. I do not have to layer the truth in sheets of bubble wrap. But then again, people reading this might think I really am bitching, when in actual fact I am not. I was unhappy, when my manager herself told me about the partner-to-manager bitching that seems to happen. Hmm;

It is all in the past after all; time to move on. Start afresh; forget the past and put previous grievances behind me. I have friends there, people I trust, some of which betrayed my trust, let us hope they are aware of their mistakes and learn from it. Let us pray I am aware of my mistakes and learn from it.

To my past, I never did get a chance to truly say goodbye. One day I was there, next day I vanished, never to be seen or heard from ever again; that until the next time I developed a craving for Rasp. Tea Frap lah. Heh. I am sorry; deeply sorry dear past, if I ever hurt you or did you wrong. Please find it in your lines of time, to forgive me and release me. Let us keep in touch, I will remember you from time to time and you remember me too? Nostalgic notions; I will always miss my violent tendencies. Because only you brought out the best in me.

where'd you go?

2006-04-03T08:40:00.000+08:00

waiting for you can be the most lonliest thing on earth. feels like you've completely gone and left when all you're lacking to do is to call or message me to let me know you're there waiting; listening ...